Easy like Sunday morning....

My husband has to work today and I hate it when he has to go. The dog cries and I am up earlier than usual for no good reason other than I have been woken up. Of course it is worse for him as he actually has to be at work (as much as he loves his job!). Being 37 weeks pregnant I am feeling like I need my rest now as there will soon be a lovely bundle to get me up instead regardless of the day of the week or the time of the day!

So today's short post is about being grateful for the things you have in the here and now and has spurred me to write a longer post about all the things I am grateful for

This morning I am grateful for sitting in bed researching crafting ideas and having time to write a shopping list of all the things I need to pick up ready for a craft day. A CRAFT DAY - I wont have time for that in a few weeks!

Now, onwards with researching and planning...

Lost...

So, I thought Blogging would be easy! Jan 1st came along - this will be fun I thought, this will be easy I thought, I will have something interesting to share I thought. It turns out I was wrong. I dont know where to start with my blogs - some of them become more like a Dear Diary entry and thats no fun to anyone!

I have been reading other blogs - totally at random to see what people talk about and it seems researched, thought out, planned and I dont seem to be able to do it.

How does one start?!?!

Pregnant and tired...no new story here!

So my day started quite poorly at about 3am when I couldnt sleep. This was most inconvenient as I had planned to be up and refreshed by 7 (when hubby left for work) so that I could walk the dog, tidy up and sort a few things out before going in to town to meet some friends for coffee. Instead it meant my morning really began at 9am when I dragged my groggy self out of bed and promised the dog a decent walk.

Well, it turns out that extra napping between 5.30am and 9am helped a great deal! I feel like Ive done plenty! Washing - done. Friends visit - done, particularly detailed catch up! Hubby's birthday shopping - partially done.  Vaccination - done (even if it was a little painful!)

I keep reading that my insomnia is linked to being uncomfortable in bed and having lots on my mind - both fair comments but I am usually a sleep monster and my discomfort isnt that bad and Im feeling organised so my brain isnt whirring at night (at the moment!). Lots of parents have told me that it is my body getting me prepared for the baby coming. I cant see this myself, however the baby is extremely active at this time of the night/morning. (Its the only thing that doesnt keep me from pulling my hair out!)

So, I am wondering - fellow parents - is it possible that the baby's waking time now will reflect its waking time once it's born?

Me Before You - Jojo Moyes

**SPOILER ALERT**

OK - the first thing to mention is that my review and thoughts of this book does give away the ending - it is vital to do so to explain my feelings about the book.

Second thing to mention is that pregnancy has made me much more emotional. I know I am not the first to experience this, but I think it is worth mentioning that I am not usually quite so high and low in my emotions. On account of this it is quite possible that my thoughts about this book are magnified by my pregnancy emotions!

A friend loaned me this book MONTHS ago!! She has asked me several times if I have started reading it and I have had to embarrassingly say 'no'. Its not that I haven't been interested, but I really haven't read a book since the summer!

A brief synopsis of the book:
A young woman, Louisa, begins a new job as a carer to a paraplegic man, Will, of a similar age. He was an active and adventurous person, but now that he has no movement in his legs and limited movement in his arms he is making plans to go to Dignatas with his family to be allowed to make the decision to die under his own wishes. Louisa decides to try to convince Will that he has plenty to live for - and of course, they end up falling in love!

Once I had realised that Louisa wasn't going to be successful I was heartbroken. How can Moyes make me invest in this lovely friendship, humorous chapters and interesting take on disability and then take it all away! It meant I couldn't put Me Before You down - much to husbands pleasure (more Champo time!).

Others can do whatever they can please as long as it doesn't affect anyone else - this remains my opinion from the way I have been brought up - but I haven't stopped thinking about this book and its affects in the real world.
How would I feel if it was me in the wheelchair? How would I feel if it was my husband in the wheelchair telling me he wanted to do the same as Will? I really don't know what I would do.

From researching and reading online about Dignatas and assisted suicide I have discovered that Terry Pratchett created a documentary about similar, but I cannot find it anywhere! It seems like it has been BANNED in the UK which I find odd - if anyone has any ideas please let me know, I'd be so interested in seeing it.

A plan for the year!

New Years Resolutions

01.01.2013 has arrived!

This was the plan...visit a few friends at some house parties before returning home for some good food and some good films to see in the new year with my husband, Pepper the border terrier and our 33 week baby bump.
The reality was I was tired - story of my life at the moment! Same as all pregnant women I guess, but I am not sleeping well and even the smallest task tires me out! Yesterday, all I did was walk Pepper for about 25 minutes and cleaned out 2 kitchen cupboards! How can that make a person tired. So we stayed in together and had a take out. My legs were restless so we ended up on seperate sofas so that I wasnt so fidgety. Romantic - no. I couldnt concentrate so I was playing on the iPad while hubby watched Sherlock Holmes. Romantic - no. We went off to bed about 10.30pm. Romantic - no. Pepper woke up to the fireworks at midnight so was brought into our bedroom to sleep. Romantic - no. I woke up about 3am with a heavy and uncomfortable bump so hubby got me a drink and some Rennie (just in case!) and cuddled me the best he could. This morning hubby looks like death due to my being awake again. Romantic - I think so!

So now that 2013 has arrived I am excited/nervous that in a few short weeks I will have given birth, my husband will be a Daddy, Pepper will, hopefully, be an excellent guard dog (as opposed to thinking the baby is yet another play thing), I wont be working for at least 9 months, I will have to find some kind of outlet for my crazy thoughts to avoid going nuts!

So thats what this new years resolution blog is all about. In the last year I have suffered with some anxiety problems and find that talking things through, thinking things out and just generally getting it out there makes me feel better. Perhaps this blog can do exactly that for me while contending with giving up work and finding my feet as a parent.

Feedback will always be welcome as I am known for being 'an explainer'!